The balance of death and life, will always be one of great exploration for me as a human, as an artist, and as a follower of Christ. We serve a God who choose death, to give us life, and the human world has never been the same. I heard the hymn, “Where You There” on Good Friday this past year and immediately fell in love. Little did I know that it was most likely written by African American slaves in the 19th century. This gives the song so much more weight to my heart than was already there. So, was I there when they crucified my Lord? Perhaps not, but my sin was and that makes it all the same. I was there, and this fact makes me tremble.
When I first felt the push to write a book, I truly scoffed a the idea. I wouldn’t consider myself a writer, and I certainly didn’t feel qualified enough on any one topic to write a whole book on it. It was then that the idea of publishing my personal journals was brought to mind. This brought a new wave of insecurities, doubt, and denials. My personal journals? What if people think I’m crazy? What if people think I’m a heretic? What if, what if, what if?
Asking, “what if?” never gets anything done.
I read through 10 years of journals (if the idea of publishing my journals wasn’t cringe-worthy enough, reading through them certainly was). Picked out the most timeless entries, that is, the ones that I felt still related to me in 2017 and On Mercy was born. I’m so grateful to my editing team, Sydney, Carmelle, Brittany and Cathryn. They helped me be a bit more inclusive theologically and made sure I was making sense grammatically. Selecting Ashley’s photographs to complete the project was probably the most fun. I found it a true joy searching through her photographic history to find pieces that complimented my words so well.
On November 1st, 2017, On Mercy was released. One year from today. On Mercy allowed others to partake in the work God had been doing in my life up until that point. Our lives are not our own, and when I surrendered mine to the Lord, I knew he would use it to bring others to Himself. If you haven’t gotten a copy, I encourage you to! From what I’ve been told, it is a great read ha.
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